I live in a world of constant worry – worry that I won’t measure up to somebody else’s perfect standards. I’ve always cared about what everybody else thinks, but never thought about what I wanted. Over my adult lifetime, this perfectionism held me back from many life experiences, friendships, and a true relationship with God.
Growing up as a child of immigrant parents, the guilt from living a privileged life shaped my perfectionism. I never wanted to disappoint my parents. I did fairly well in school and university, but my perfectionism was more pronounced in other aspects of my life, such as my social life. I had a certain picture in my head of how I wanted to be perceived by others, and so, if I felt that I didn’t measure up, I avoided the situation at all costs. I missed out on a lot in life: friendships, networking opportunities, advancements in my careers, traveling and other hobbies.
Before coming to Christ, I did not know how to love others selflessly.
I grew up in a non-Christian household. My parents were Asian immigrants who worked hard to provide for our family and I had, what I would describe as, a typical Asian childhood. My parents had high expectations for me, and as a result, were frequently disappointed. I remember getting 98% on a math test once and instead of praise or congratulations, my dad’s remark was, “Why didn’t you get 100%?”
Without Christ in my life, I thought that love had to be earned. Love was something given as a reward for doing good and taken away for doing bad. Get straight A’s and you get more love, while getting in trouble meant less love. While there was no doubt in my mind that my parents loved me, I couldn’t help but think that I would be more loved if I met their expectations.
Anne has sent a wish list of items that can be used for the Living Fountain Orphanage. The Cambodia team will be delivering them. Sign up at the foyer and please bring the items by July 29.
My name is Joseph Oh and I’ve had a great opportunity to serve in Kingston Galloway summer camp with the Toronto City Mission staff and interns. Very similar to last year, our team developed two craft activities under the theme of the ten plagues. Our focus was to show two things: God can use both the good and the bad things in our lives to shape us, use us, and carry out his plans, and that Jesus‘ blood saved us from our sins, and that He is our Passover Lamb.
Right after the Civic Holiday, Lyka, Dylan, Miga, Erica and I joined Toronto City Mission (TCM) and served at Sonshine Day Camp children’s program in St. Jamestown (SJT), where we ministered to children aged 6 to 12 by leading fun activities such as art crafts, food crafts, and music.
Prior to joining TCM, our church, City on a Hill, had several sermons on missions focusing on Matthew 9:35-38: “The harvest is plentiful but workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field”. I learned that Jesus calls every follower to be involved in His mission which is to proclaim Christ as the only savior from sin and only way to eternal life. This led me to pray for God to send more workers into his harvest field and also for God to send me. J.D Greear mentioned in his book, Gaining By Losing that the question is no longer if we are called, only where and how. It means that all believers are called to go into His harvest field, we just need to ask God where and how.