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Julia Chang (Baptism)

I was born in South Korea and grew up in a Christian family. Every Sunday my parents would take me to church; this continued when we immigrated to Vancouver in 2000. From there, I met great pastors, teachers and friends — friends that I made for the very first time in Canada. I befriended three girls that continue to be my oldest friends to this day.

In our adolescent years, each of us developed different interests and out of the four of us, one began to invest her time and energy into her relationship with God. I remember her telling us that she found a new joy in becoming a Christian, and the rest of us merely witnessed what this new joy looked like through her.

About a year after she publicly declared her love for God in front of everyone at church, she suddenly fell extremely ill. The girl, who had no track record of any serious illness in her family, now had leukemia. I had a tough time coping with my closest friend’s life suddenly changing. I prayed earnestly and out of desperation that God would heal our friend who was so near and dear to our hearts. I prayed without believing and trusting in Him; it just felt like the right thing to do.

After a year of chemotherapy, a bone marrow transplant, and successful recovery from surgery, we all enthusiastically believed God had answered our prayers. With relief and joy, the three of us went to visit her and it felt just like old times. However, what we did not know then was that it would be the final time the four of us would laugh and smile together. Due to developing complications during her recovery she passed away shortly after at the age of 17. I did not know how to handle the loss of one of my closest friends. I felt betrayed by God. I was angry and disappointed in Him.

However, the problem was that I was naïve in my belief in God and quite simply believed He existed in the stories I had learned from Sunday school. I had no real relationship with Him and I was not a Christian. For this reason, it was easy to close my heart and turn my back to Him, eventually keeping a distance from church and fellowship.

Years of life without God on my mind and heart turned me into a self-centered person. More and more I emphasized my focus on personal accomplishments in career, money and materialistic things. Eventually these things would become the center of my being, neglecting things that mattered most — relationships, family, and most importantly God. My selfish attitude began to negatively impact all my relationships and I now began to close my heart to people just as I did to God. Even through achieving personal accomplishments, I couldn’t help but feel like a solitude prisoner confined to a concrete cell that I had ironically created for myself.

I started searching for meaning and purpose in life. I felt like a substantial piece of a puzzle was missing in my life — a piece that I realized could not be replaced by a new job, new friendship or boyfriend. What was left? The more I tried to answer that question, the more my heart was telling me to go back to church, where I could be in God’s presence. In hopes for an answer, I had the urge to get to know Him better; I believe that God was opening doors for me to come back and rediscover who He is. Around the same time, new friends came into my life and I was encouraged and brought along to church. This time around, my heart was willing to learn and my ears, open to listen.

Every Sunday, God was speaking to my heart through Pastor Chang. God’s Word slowly pushed me to make differences in my daily life as I began to see the importance and sense in what was being said. I started seeing relationships and friendships differently; I saw both the importance and intentions in why He made relationships.  I wanted to be a better person according to God’s standard rather than the world’s, and I wanted a real relationship with God as my Father.

While in that transition of my life, God showed His love by continually connecting me with His children — one of them being my partner, who has shown me how happy and contented one could be living a life with God.  With God’s Word, along with the new relationships I was building with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, things started clicking. The things I had been determined to accomplish were not as important for the same reasons anymore and when I accepted Christ into my heart, I shifted my priorities to what matters to God: to be more loving, forgiving and happy regardless of where I am in life. His love has given me the courage not to fear the things I experience in life; His grace has saved me from my sins and I am loved no matter what.

I am now able to understand why my friend did not fear, have hatred, disappointment or anger towards God throughout her stay in the hospital. It took many years to realize, but now I see that she too knew that, through God sending His one and only Son to save us from our sins, we are loved by a perfect Being and have nothing to fear in His embrace.

I learned to trust in Jesus and His unconditional love. Even when my life is littered with obstacles and challenges, I will hold onto God’s Word as my anchor, Jesus’ loving sacrifice as an example, and the Holy Spirit’s encouragement to do my utmost to live out my life as a child of God with Him as my Father.

Angela Yu (Confirmation)

Of three siblings, I am the only daughter and being the oldest, meant responsibility towards my parents. We immigrated to Canada in 1975 and lived the life of an immigrant family by adjusting to the new country and the language.  I admit that for my parents, being the first generation had its difficulties as they sacrificed many hours without proper language skills to provide a better future for the next generation.   Now, I have become a parent of two children and like my parents, my role is to provide guidance and support for my children.

My life before becoming a Christian would have been considered normal. I graduated from university and attended my parent’s church from time to time and worked at various jobs prior to getting married.  I have to admit that I was not a complete believer of Jesus Christ during this stage of my life.  I was busy raising my children and handling multiple duties as many parents do today — feeling anxious, exhausted and sometimes losing the purpose and meaning of life.  However, becoming a Christian has brought peace into my life and God has invited me to attend City on a Hill to build relationship with him.

October, 2011, brought the passing of my father during a bladder cancer surgery from which he never recovered and only then did I realize that my trust and faith in Jesus Christ had entered into my life.  It was a very tragic moment in my life.  From this moment on, I came to believe that no matter how much we have or what we have accomplished in life, I could never bring my father back.  I admitted that I was feeling helpless and very angry towards myself as I was desperately seeking answers.

I believe that we are born into this world with a purpose, and that what we see around us may not always provide answers, so it is important to seek Jesus Christ as my Savior and always have trust and faith in him.  I admit that I was able to find peace with Jesus Christ during this difficult stage as he has entered into my life.  I believe that life is fragile and I have no control over anything that happens in my life, however becoming a Christian has made me grow in faith towards Jesus Christ and I came to believe that we cannot take anything for granted in this world. My new perspective is to enjoy every moment with full gratitude.

I have found peace with Jesus Christ as he is always with me and has guided me through and I am grateful for who I am today.  He has saved me from feeling guilty and has made me realize and directed me to become a better person by saving me from sin and guilt; now I am alive in Christ. My life and perspective have changed since I trusted in Jesus Christ as I have found peace within me; this is from growing in faith as he is my Saviour and he will always be part of my life.  Life seems full of ups and downs today as there are constant changes all around us. However, through faith in Jesus Christ, I am able to forgive others, have passion for what life brings and can enjoy each moment to the fullest. My returning to City on a Hill has made my life fuller and richer and I believe this is due to having Jesus Christ as my personal Saviour.

Kersty Stephen (Baptism)

I can’t tell you that I grew up not knowing about God, because I was raised Catholic, but growing up as a Catholic was a bit of a struggle for me. I heard a lot about God and Jesus, but I didn’t have a clear understanding of who He is or why it mattered or what it had to do with me and my life.  I have spent a huge part of my life trying to figure out the importance of God in my life, and also finding the right church where I could belong.  There is also the fact that for most of my life, I have felt lost.  I have felt that if I closed my eyes for too long, the darkness of my sins would reach up and suffocate me.

My grandmother once said that God doesn’t forget about you, and that He sees you — that it’s not about when you are ready for Him, but when He is ready for you.  I fully believe that when I started coming to City on a Hill, this is where my true journey began. I was encouraged to join Christianity Explored, and it was in those classes where I felt comfortable enough to ask all the questions I have always wanted to ask, and also to able to doubt and question ideas freely.  But, most importantly, it was through this time when I got to really understand who Christ was, what He accomplished for someone like me, and what His sacrifice really meant in my life.

It was at that time that I chose to accept Jesus into my life as my Lord and Saviour, because then, I knew that my life wasn’t mine to live, it belonged to Christ.  Since that decision, I have felt more sure about myself and am learning to let go of the control that I have been clinging onto all this time and to trust that God has a plan for me.

I can’t tell you that I have cut out all my habits, because old habits die hard, but as someone who is at the beginning of her Christian journey, I feel like I have so much more to learn, and so much more to understand about Christ and His Good News.

Two New City Catechism publications

are available in the foyer until July 16:  The New City Catechism: 52 Questions and Answers for Our Hearts and Minds ($10) and The New City Catechism Devotional ($20).  Go to:   newcitycatechism.com to download a free app.

 

 

 

Respite Care Ministry:

We are looking for members to join us in providing respite service and care for families and individuals who have special needs.  Respite care can range from cleaning, mowing the lawn, to prayer, babysitting, tutoring and even hanging out.  If interested, contact Deacon Ricardo Ahn or  Pastor Edgar Nho (edgarnho@youngnak.ca).