I was born and raised in a Christian family. I was baptized as a baby and went to church every Sunday because my parents told me to do so. Sunday school and Bible study built the shallow foundation of my knowledge of the Word. I was also very involved in church through praise team, tech team, volunteering for VBS, and so forth.
However, as I got a bit older, going to church became a routine and I started going through the motions. It hit hardest in high school and in the early years of university where I was exposed to worldly pleasures and became more distant from God.
I went to church to socialize with friends, I read the Bible very infrequently, and I prayed to God only when I wanted something. At this point, I was a hypocritical Christian wearing two masks — one for Sundays and one for every other day in the week. I identified as Christian and I knew Jesus Christ died for our sins, but I never really understood or embraced the meaning behind his death and resurrection. Before coming to Christ, I was a sinner who appealed to worldly views. However, through God’s guidance and being surrounded by fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, I was able to see the truth.
I joined Young Nak and CoaH in my second year of university which was a darker time in my life. I had many doubts, was very skeptical, and lacked trust in God. However, God reached out to me through the sermons. I began to really understand the depth of my sin and the fact that my sin alone deserved eternal punishment, but I also came to realize and embrace God’s mercy and grace in that he sent his only begotten son Jesus Christ down to earth to carry our burdens and save us from our sin despite us not deserving anything whatsoever. Jesus, who was perfect in every sense of the word, took our sin for us, died on the cross, and was resurrected three days later to be at God’s right hand. This was God’s perfect plan which I neglected and took for granted.
Aside from the Sunday sermons, my faith was strengthened by personal testimonies which shared often times a similar journey to mine. Furthermore, I learned the power of fellowship by attending the summer and winter retreats where I bonded with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. However, I believe the catalyst which made me confirm that I was a Christian was my involvement in OASIS and Life Groups. OASIS kept me accountable in my relationship with God and taught me the importance of repentance and reading the Bible regularly. Life Groups taught me that it is by God’s grace alone that we are saved.
Throughout the course of my life, I hesitated and kept delaying my confirmation because I felt I was not ready. My belief was that only mature Christians get confirmed and I felt that I lacked that maturity and knowledge of the Word. So, I kept trying to be a better Christian so that one day I would be ready to be confirmed, but I realized in Life Groups that that was not the case at all. As it is told in Ephesians 2:8-9, For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. I am a Christian because Jesus Christ died for our sins and now I really understand what that means.
Becoming Christian has definitely opened my eyes to God’s beauty and perfection; it has given me a new perspective on life and has made me appreciate all of life’s splendor, but it also gets me excited as I look forward to Jesus’ second coming and our new life in heaven. I am continuously learning new ways to love God and to love my neighbours around me.